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I had two exams today and to be honest, they were downright horrible. I studied for biology, so that was alright. There was some stuff I should have none but it just slipped out of my head. I studied for physics, but that was just a massacre. I can't really describe it in words but the moment I walked out of my exam, I felt like I wanted to cry. This mark, means a lot, as its whether or not I'll get into my university of choice. But to be honest, if I had a choice, I would rather not want to worry about all this stuff. I mean yeah, you come out with a degree, but in the end, it's just a piece of paper.
University means a lot for my parents because...well, neither of them graduated high school. Yet they're alright. I just don't want to feel like I'm disappointing them. And this physics mark...man. No matter how much help I get, no matter how many times I read the textbook, my mark will always be bad. I found out today that the questions she gives aren't even questions she made up herself; everything my teacher gave us is from the internet! Yet this mark, this mark that reflects stuff we've never even been taught, is going to determine whether or not I get into Waterloo. Dang.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. [Romans 8:28]
But God continues to be faithful and I shouldn't worry...because everything is in his plan. Although it's hard for me to smile these days, he threw a little surprise my way. I was walking to the bus stop, upset and feeling like crap, when one of my friends whom I haven't hung out since the summer came. He's moving second semester a few cities away and well...just talking to him made my day a little brighter. Although I may have done horrible in physics and possibly not even get into university, God will work nevertheless. Despite all this sorrow I've felt in the last month, God is in control. Forever and always.
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Our greatest comfort in sorrow is to know that God is in control.
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