Where to God?

Day 2. First day of 2012 is over. Now what? What does God have in store for me this year?

Last year was one hectic year. Let’s start from the beginning. Dislocating my knee. How else can I describe it? While competing at a track and field meet I was in mid air and SNAP my knee dislocates and I land on the same leg. I didn’t know what to think about. Did I win? Obviously not. Can I walk? Who knows I was still on the floor. All of a sudden I bursted out in tears. Why? I was thinking to God why would you do this to me? What have I done to deserve this? There was no way I could compete for the rest of the year. This was my only way to take out my stress. Through sports and all of a sudden in one jump it’s all gone. As I was going back home I was thinking about what my restrictions were, now that I wasn’t able to walk. I was thinking about Church. We had an event called Acupe coming up and I was one of the main characters in a skit. How was I able to act without walking. It’s just not possible. As the day came closer and closer I prayed harder and harder asking God to just heal my leg. A week before the night I tried walking without my crutches and guess what? He DID answer my prayer! It was such a miracle and I didn’t know what to say.

I thought that this would be the first and last obstacle that I’d face in 2011 but I was wrong. Going to Kenya for a mission’s trip I didn’t expect any big challenges that I’d face (since I went the year before). 5 days into the camp I realized that my breathing pattern wasn’t very stable. I asked the doctor what could it be? He asked if I’m asthmatic and I said that I got it in grade 3 but grew out of it. he quickly got his stethoscope and examined my breathing. In my head I was asking God why me? (again) after dislocating my knee and now this. What is he trying to tell me? I was quickly diagnosed with asthma once again and I had to take my puffer once every 2 hours. It wasn’t easy living a life like this back in grade 3 and nothing would make it better now. There’s no cure for asthma so I knew that I’d have to deal with this my whole life.

After 2 big challenges that I faced I quickly got back up and continued my race. October 30 came along and this meant our annual fall retreat. Retreat is when our fellowship at RHCCC goes to a campsite for the weekend to spend time with God and each other. We were playing games and once was called Spokes. The objective of the game is to pop a balloon that is set in the center of a circle with whatever body part that is called out. So the last round came and I was called. i was about to pop the balloon and before I knew it I got tackled by a counsellor. He’s in his mid 20s and pretty big of a guy. It wasn’t easy to get up. He hit the knee that got dislocated a few months before and I realized that he had dislocated it. my mind went blank. I hit the floor with my head and it all went black. I didn’t know what to say or do. After 15 seconds of being on the floor I realized that my knee wasn’t in place. I quickly popped it back in (I know that sounds gross but its true :s ) and asked for help to get up.

Those were the most intense and scariest moments of 2011 for me. Going into 2012 I honestly don’t know what God will do to me. Getting my knee dislocated twice and being diagnosed with asthma is something that isn’t fun to deal with.

Today’s devos is about missions. (Jason posted it so ya’ll can read it off his so it won’t take up that much space) I wanted to go to Belize and thinking bout the past year I’m a little bit iffy bout it. Getting asthma in Kenya and having a not very stable knee. Where would God send me? What would he do next? Being away from my family may not be the best since I do get hurt a lot :$

I honestly don’t know where my next field will be. Somewhere across the world or back here in my own community. Knowing that God will guide and provide it’s all up to him to decide.

After praying for healing I now know that he answers prayers. I’ve seen it for myself. But the worst part is that it takes time. Patience is key in a relationship. It may be hard to wait but God has a purpose for his every move.

In Isaiah 6:8 it says: “Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, ‘Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?’ And I said, ‘Here am I. Send me!’”

We should always be ready for what God has in store for us. No matter how many obstacles he’s given us. He gives us these obstacles and challenges because he knows that we can conquer them one at a time.

I’ve learned to keep an open mind no matter how much I’ve been through. Holding a grudge on God is just a waste of time. He’s provided us with everything and he wants to see us happy.

Be happy with where you get sent because there’s a reason for everything.